I kept saying to Andrew he was working too hard, pushing himself way too far, that one day his body would just shut down and I think that day has come!
As we headed to bed a couple of nights ago Andrew was grumbling of tummy pain, I won’t go into too much detail (I will spare his embarrassment) anyway after three hours of thrashing around in pain and finally waking on the third occasion to find him throwing up, I actually just said enough was enough, I ordered him to casualty. Somewhere inside myself despite exhaustion and agony I got dressed, I then helped Andrew get dressed and drove us both to Wexham Park Hospital A&E. Adrenaline does funny things to you, it appears to have made me into some kind of fearless wonder woman. I drove the car without thinking, albeit slowly, I managed to park (wonky) and we both got there in one piece! Now In hind sight, isn’t that a marvelous thing, I should have called an ambulance, but I didn’t want to waste time. I knew if I drove him I could save an hour of messing around. So that was my reasoning.
As I tried to check him in, obviously he was in a bad way, he couldn’t sit down, he was writhing around and making some very unusual almost primal noises, and I was extremely upset. A paramedic took us both straight in, he felt Andrew needed immediate treatment.
They assessed him immediately and gave him oramorph, this didn’t change a thing he was in agony. It didn’t matter what position he tried to get into he was so uncomfortable, I was helpless unable to assist the man I love and make him better. I tried to be strong and hold back the tears but it became too much and a few stray tears slid down my cheek I wouldn’t let him see them. They came over again asking how the oramorph had worked, it hadn’t, it had just made Andrew flush all hot, so they went away and came back with a concoction of three drugs for pain relief. All three were administered, two via IV, one rectally, thankfully they left Andrew to keep his dignity and do that himself
They moved us into the yellow section, we still hadn’t seen a doctor and it was getting frustrating. We had been in the hospital over two hours by this point. Andrews pain was in waves, the most serious wave came and I didn’t know how to help. This time he started to be violently sick, however on this occasion staff started to appear from everywhere, I couldn’t stop the tears, I was begging by this point for a doctor to help. Miraculously one just appeared to access Andrew within minutes.
They gave him IV morphine and calmed him down, he was fully checked over and it was decided that he probably had kidney stones which were “on the move” so he would need admitting as he was in so much pain and would need an urgent CT scan. Over the course of the next few hours the waves of pain diminished which was good, the medications appeared to be helping, suddenly they decided they had a bed, I needed to get my wheelchair as the ward was so far away. They agreed to wait for me, despite a few eye rolls.
We headed to the ward and it was suddenly a sinking feeling that my carer was sick, not just a little bit ill, but really sick. As we were put into a side ward I felt sick, shaky and not so great myself. Twice they had asked about admitting me, I kept declining. Suddenly the nurse in charge at 9:05 said I’m sorry visiting doesn’t start until 10am you will have to leave. We explained that I’d been in the hospital since 4am, she said she was sorry but rules were rules and I would have to go to the day room. Oh here we go again, my heart rate went off, my chest pain was 9/10, tears pricked my eyes, how could someone so caring be so callous?
I didn’t want to cause Andrew stress so said to him I would just go home, he said no, we would both go to the day room, after she completed the paperwork, she showed us to the room, however it was being used for a nurses handover. Guess what the rules could be broken then, I was sent back to Andrews side room! How ridiculous 😡
Andrews consultant came round and they then decided it probably was a kidney stone, the CT scan which was booked would confirm this probable diagnosis they were just waiting for space in the scanner, it was scheduled for the afternoon, imagine our surprise when they came to get us, in the morning!
A little after 3pm the top consultant came to discuss Andrews case, they had the findings of the CT scan. He agreed a very small stone was found, he stated that 80% of those size stones pass without problem. Therefore within 24-48 hours Andrew should be able to be home. He asked if we had questions, obviously my question was my care. So I asked and he immediately put the wheels in motion, within an hour we had a twice a day care plan in place, just in the short term to help Andrew and I whilst he is so poorly.
Meanwhile what do I do while my carer gets sick? God knows …. Miss him, cry a lot and spend hours and hours by his bedside, as that’s what’s i do, I don’t manage with separation. I struggle, after all look at my HR yesterday !! The hospital kept asking if I wanted booking in? Not once did they ask why I was so sick, the nature of my illness, until they had to sort out my care plan. Then when the nurse found out my HR her attitude changed. She even queried should she give me an ECG.
It’s not fun being chronically ill, it’s even less fun being chronically ill when your carer is admitted to hospital 😢